Hello, my name is Alainnah Robertson and this is my story

Before we embark on our journey together, examining your secret self, you need to know something about me. I am going to be completely honest about myself with you, as I expect you to be with yourself. I’m going to tell you a secret that every woman prefers to keep to herself. I was born in Kinlochleven, Scotland, on April 15th, 1933. You can now calculate my chronological and biological age, but I feel as if I am still in my early thirties. I prefer to put it that I have had a lot of life experience.

A little about me

 

My ten-year-old self had heard the Call…

Picture a sunny, spring day in Scotland. A small crowd of people is standing around the Church of Scotland door as the minister shakes hands with his departing congregation. Churches had no social hour in those long ago days!

Listening to the minister that morning, my ten-year-old self had heard the Call, and I shared it with the minister and the people gathered around him: God wanted me to become a minister in the Auld Kirk. They laughed in the aisles at the idea.

My mother explained to me later that only males were allowed to study theology, and go to university to train as ministers. 

I pursued a life of spirituality…

God got it right, and the Kirk got it wrong! What is truth? I’m not talking about my truth, or any other person's truth, but the Ultimate’s truth. Finding the answer to this question became the passionate quest of my life. Beginning with Christianity, I read the sacred literature of all the major religions and political creeds.

I was looking for the basic ideas and what kinds of people were produced by each different world view. I read philosophy, psychology, history, geography, and everything related to my quest. I’ve lived in many countries, gaining experience and knowledge. After a lifetime’s work, I found my answer.  

Here for you now…

So, this is all about you. Here you can find answers to your own existential questions. You will learn what a mature human being is, and how you compare.

If you have the courage to look honestly into your own soul, you will be fascinated by the result.

Do you have that courage? 

“An unexamined life is not worth living.”

— Socrates, Athens, Greece (470-399 BCE)

Track Record

This is where it is usual to detail all the professional qualifications of the person who is selling their services or product on their website. My qualifications would be my long life experience, and the learning I have done over those many years. What follows will give you some idea of that, and help you make up your mind as to whether you should consider what I have to say, or decide not to waste your time. I’ve learned to know myself, and it would be my greatest pleasure to help you know yourself.

Growing up in Scotland, as a willing student, I was exposed to the worldview and thinking of the Reform Presbyterian Church of Scotland. The main idea I gathered was that there is a Higher Power whom we can tune into, and who accepts me with unconditional love. This idea has been the foundation of my life, and it has given me the self-confidence to live life to the fullest, wherever I found myself. The follow-on from that idea is that the Great Spirit expects us to show the same unconditional love and respect to everyone else. This has been a keystone in my dealings with others. My rational, open mind is fully aware that this idea may simply be a construct of the human mind, but it has helped me mould my life and achieve my dreams. The Life Force is my friend and companion.

Another key idea that the church gave me was that the Bible is an open book, and that we must go to the source material, read it for ourselves, and make up our own minds about what is being expounded. This developed in me an open mind and a lifelong passion to pursue so many fields of learning.

The Scottish educational system instilled in me a love of learning. It introduced me to reading, writing, and arithmetic, along with English grammar, great literature, history, geography, chemistry, physics, and mathematics. Here, again, was the idea that we are “standing on the shoulders of giants,” an image evoked by Isaac Newton in 1675 in a letter. We first have to learn from the masters who have gone before us, before we can build something new ourselves. Go to the source! Why reinvent the wheel? 

When I first began to talk politics with my father, I still remember him telling me that he and my mother were liberals in the classical sense. He explained that this meant that they supported the rule of law, under which everyone was equal. Everyone was free to live life as they wanted within the law, and there should be freedom of speech. Government was by consensus, and the elected representatives were in Parliament to further the welfare of the country and its people. This seemed reasonable to my young self, and I agreed with him. I, too, was a classical liberal. There should be no dictators, and no ideologies. Of course, this is the ideal: the reality has become something different. Even then there was a polarisation in society between the people who had money and power because they had created businesses, and those who worked for those businesses. This division my father deplored but could understand. 

My parents were of their times, and their parenting style respected the autonomy of their children and gave us great freedom. We were left to develop our own thinking, and do what we liked, within a loose framework of expectations. This has left me very grateful for them, for the Church of Scotland, for my schooling, and for Scotland. I consider myself very fortunate to have grown up in a society that encouraged individuals to value learning, to explore themselves, to open their minds constantly to new ideas, to think for themselves. The Scottish Enlightenment didn’t come out of nowhere!

The Master said, “Is it nor indeed a pleasure to acquire knowledge and constantly exercise oneself therein?”

— Analects of Confucius: Book 1, verse 1 (55-479 BCE)

Let’s Keep Going

In 1955, with that foundation, I left Scotland and went out to Africa with my new, young husband. I spent twenty very happy years there as a wife, homemaker, mother, and mining wife. I took on these roles quite naturally. When my husband and I decided to have children, it seemed obvious that I would stay at home and look after them, and my husband would provide the wherewithal for all of us to have a happy lifestyle. In any case, I was busy running the household, cooking for my family, making clothes for myself and my little daughter, growing fruit and vegetables, creating our social life, and pursuing my education. Another job outside the home would have made life very difficult. 

In 1975, I wept when we left Africa for a new life in Canada. But we never looked back. For the first nine years, I was still a mining wife in the Canadian north, but I also became involved in local politics. As secretary of a CUPE Union, I was involved in arbitration, became a municipal councillor, and ran for mayor of the little place where we lived. 

In 1984, when the mine closed, we moved to Vancouver. I became a typographer and bought a business: a type house, as they were called in those days. I served on the board of the Printing Industries Association of BC, and as its president for three years. I loved being in business, loved the printing industry. Immense changes took place in the sector during those times, above all because of new technologies. After the Apple Mac came along, life was never the same again. I certainly could agree with the Chinese that exciting times can be a curse. In the same period, I became involved in the vibrant New Age scene. 

In 1998, I moved to Edmonton, Alberta, to be close to my son and his family. When my husband died, I joined the First Presbyterian Church of Canada. I sang in the choir, led a group who gave feedback on the reconstruction of the Catechism, and was ordained as an Elder. I served as President of the Downtown Edmonton Community Association (DECA), and also as President of the Edmonton Lifelong Learners Association (ELLA). 

In 2008, I moved to Toronto, and have been here ever since then. My daughter’s sons were 16 and 14 years old, and she had been asking me for a long time to move to Toronto to be with her and her family. The day came when I finally decided to make that move. I was so glad that I did, as it was such a joy to be with my daughter, and to become close to my grandsons. Six months after I arrived, I met and fell madly in love with the man who became my second husband. We have had a wonderful time together, visiting the Caribbean and all the major cities in the eastern States.

You get it

I could go on longer, but I won’t. You get the picture, I’m sure! My life has been full; I’ve done and seen so much, and learned from all my different experiences. I wish I had known what I know now when I started out in life. On the other hand, it’s been such an adventure, and my quest for wisdom and knowledge has made it all the richer. It would be so rewarding to support you in adding to your life knowledge to increase your pleasure in life.  

 

Where do you go from here?

Understanding ourselves is always our biggest undertaking, and changing ourselves into who we want to be is our most difficult challenge.

Let me share my experiences and show you how I have focused on what is important in this journey.

 

Step 01

Where to start is always the big question. I suggest that you first of all read my book, Mindfulness Together. This is a guide to leading a group in exploring their inner selves and learning what is a mature human being. It gives the big picture which will let you see where you fit in. How mature are you, and what areas need work?


Step 02

Once you have seen that big picture, you could return to the beginning and apply the lessons to yourself. It’s one thing to know about a subject, to really know it one has to work with it.

Read books on the many facets of the subject, listen to podcasts, explore groups who are working in the many different areas. As you do this, your knowledge of yourself will grow. You will have many adventures and meet fascinating people along the way.


Step 03

Perhaps run a group yourself? It could be done in your own home, or anywhere else suitable. To teach is to really learn any subject. To run a group is to make many friends and experience the joy of sharing.